Last Day of Preschool

Left:  First day of preschool in September 2010.  Right: Last day of preschool May 24, 2012.  I think his attitude has changed more than anything.  Below:  Dylan with his teachers Ms. Rose and Mrs. Vadala. 

Ronald McDonald Dress

I'm not promoting McDonalds here or anything (since I know some of you have strong feelings against the restaurant) - this just happened to be one of the dresses that my mom kept from my childhood and now Lydia gets to wear it.  I waited a little too long to put her in the dress (I was 2 in the picture and Lydia is 3+) but it was fun to do this little photo session.  We did go to McDonalds afterwards (although I put some pants on her under the dress since it was too short) so we had a fun little outing on one of our last mornings alone together without the D-man (before school was out for him).  I don't think Lydia looks like me in any of these pictures.  But there are other pictures where she does.  I have a picture of her in a "future Miss America" swimsuit that was mine in which I think she looks more like me.  I got her to smile more like me in those pictures.  I'll post those soon.  Here, she's just got that big eyes, cheeky smile. 

6 months

Went to the cemetery on Thursday (the 24th) thinking that the grave marker would be there since on Monday they told me it had arrived but had not been placed yet but would be in the next day or two.  It wasn't, which I would have been fine with except that they told me it would be there and I was expecting it.  Anyway, Lydia and I put in the cross you see here that my mom picked up.  You can see that the grass is growing in now.  I talked to the lady at the cemetery office and she said the marker would be in the next day (Friday) so we went again today with Dylan and Martin but it still wasn't there.  I understand they were busy with Memorial Day and I would have been fine if they said oh we probably won't get to until next week but the fact that they told me it would be there and it wasn't annoys me.  They should know this is an emotional thing and not to tell people it will be there unless they know for sure.  I doubt if we'll be back until June 24th so we'll see it then. 

Matters of the Heart

The doctor checked my heart and said my heart was strong and healthy.  She then asked me what's been going on in my life.  Well....  After I told her about Joshua, she said that the stress and anxiety of losing him is probably causing the heart palpitations.  She suggested that I talk to a licensed counselor.  I have an appointment on Friday.  She did some blood work just to make sure but that came back fine.  So it's grief-related.  I also just started a GriefShare support group at my church so hopefully these things will help keep the palpitations away.  The doctor seemed to think I could get through this without medication.  And so far so good as I haven't had any palpitations in about a week. 

I finished my accounting class and got an A (barely).  Yea!!  I decided not to take another class over the summer because they only offer 8-week classes and that would be too condensed for me since I had a hard time keeping up with my 16-week class.  I'll take another class in the fall.  I have 8 that I have to take in total before I could sit for the CPA exam so it's going to take awhile.

Dylan is taking a swim class twice a week for 8 weeks and I have been swimming while he is in class.  So I'm getting a little exercise.  And I'm hoping to continue swimming when the pool opens in 3 weeks.  

We're going to a memorial service on Saturday night for all the babies that passed away in my OB/GYN's practice.  It's something really great that they do each year. 

While my heart is strong and healthy, it's still healing.